Alas I finally I know the truth:
The bitter story of my youth
reflected in my adult days as once again I’m spurned.

Now I sit here in my chair.
Alone I suffer in despair
until I see a sight which I did not think I could see.

A girl like her… but no, not quite,
for what was wrong before, is right.
Do I dare to try again. I know what pain may be.

But I cannot just pass her by.
For bad or good, I have to try
for she is special. Thought I fear defeat, I must press on.

Out of practice, clumsy, shy,
I feel as though I just might die.
“How could she like me?” I just ask, but hope remains alive.

Does she like me? Who can tell?
I know women’s games quite well.
I fear that she will hurt me still, but nonetheless I strive.

I feel like maybe I have won.
Perhaps she really is the one.
I know I can’t come on to strong and drive this girl away

but furor gets the best of me.
I push to hard and then I see
that I have scared her off with something that I shouldn’t say.

So once again I sit and cry
and wait until the day I die
and pray that it comes swiftly to alleviate the pain.

At least I have an answer to
the question I’d have asked of you
if ever I had gotten to: Can I love again?

I have been filled with that which I
know to be love that will not die,
so now I sit in silent pain
alone here in my hell.

My sorrow is not for the one
I can’t posses (though that’s no fun)
but rather for the simple fact
that I do not deserve

to claim a love for such as her.
She is an angel, sweet and pure
and I am just a nothing.
Just a servant, so I serve.

She is a light that fills my day
with happiness, though far away,
but each night I’m in agony
while dreaming of my love.

And always will I shed a tear
whenever I think of my dear
and question “Who am I to love
this perfect angel from above?”

I do not tell her how I feel.
The consequences are too real
and I would never trouble her.
I’m low and she’s so high.

So every day just goes on by
and each day more and more I die
and always will I start to cry
each time I question “Who am I?”

I gave you my heart right from the start
as soon as I knew all about you.
Now we are apart, except for your art,
and I know I can’t live without you.

I’d sell my soul for a life with you.
I don’t care what I have to do.
Let me be the one. Oh let me be the one
to hold you in my arms.

What do you see when you look at me?
What would you think if I told you I loved you?
What would you do if I said that I can’t live my life
without you now?

Every day’s the same since you went away.
Never ending pain without you.
You will never see what you have done to me
and you don’t know this song’s about you.

Let me be the one to hold you.
Let me be the one to love you.
Let me be the one to hold you in my arms again.

You make me warm with every touch.
You’ve got me wanting you so much.
You give me what I want and I will never give you up.

You are my favorite vice.
Go down as slick as ice.
Will you come with me?
I wanna be close to you.

You make me someone else. I just can’t help myself.

I pick you up, put down my guard.
I feel so soft when I go hard.
I want to feel you inside. Won’t hide when I’m burning up.

Drowning in a feeling I adore
always leaves me reeling on the floor.
Once I’ve had a taste, I want so much more,
knowing all that you still have in store.

I wanted to touch. I wanted to feel.
To know that it’s true. To know that it’s real.
You took every doubt and you threw it away
and now I pay because

I’m closer to the edge. Closer to the pain.
Closer to my death. It’s driving me insane.
I fall into your eyes and then I realize
I don’t wanna live without you anymore.

I’d trade even more to get closer to you.
The more that I get, the more I know it won’t do.
I didn’t know that I was playing with fire,
now I’m lost in an impossible desire.

You’re better than I thought that anyone could be.
You don’t even know you have this power over me.
I thought it would change, that it would just go away,
but it’s here to stay and now

I don’t wanna live without you.
Take this pain away.
I’m begging you.

Closer to the end. Closer to the fall.
I wanna be your friend. I wanna have it all.
I wanna belong to you and I’m not gonna live
unless I’m closer to you.

Will you sign my photo?
You’re my favorite.
I wanna tell you something but I know I can’t.

There’s so much that I want to say.
So much that cannot be said.
But I gotta tell you one thing before I am dead.

I love the green of your eyes and those wonderful lies
that you tell to the world.
I love your nose and your lips and the shape of your hips.
You’re a beautiful girl.
Don’t ever let them tell you you’re not good enough
for what you wanna do.
There’s nothing that I cherish more than you.

If you should falter or question the modes
or intentions of people around,
just remember that you have a friend who will always
worship the ground that you walk upon,
cause to me, you’re an angel that’s come from so high above.
Whatever you do, remember that you are loved.

I welcome your attack cause I’m in so much pain.

You wanna kill the outside, then go ahead.
Because on the inside, I’m already dead.
You wanna hate me. You love to hate me.
You need to hate me. Go ahead and hate me.

Hate me cause I care. Hate me cause I’m there.
Hate me cause I’m not afraid to stay. Yeah.

Hate me cause I feel. Hate me cause I’m real.
Hate me cause I’ll never go away. Yeah.

Won’t you please come and put a bullet in my brain?

There’s something wrong when everybody hates somebody
cause they love someone, support someone.
There’s something wrong when everybody hates somebody
cause they want someone, they need someone.

Your heart races upon her sight. You’ll always be her acolyte.
Just one look into her eyes will get you through the darkest night.
When you wake, she’s in your head. She’s your last thought before you bed.
You’ll never lose that love for her. You’d cease to live if she were dead.

Why do you love her?

The beauty of a goddess and the voice that stole your heart.
To live one day without her, your mind is torn apart.
You are a lonely person in this hell within your head,
but if she wasn’t also here, you know that you’d be dead.

Your mind races upon her sight. You’ll always be her satellite.
Just one look upon her face and everything will be alright.
All day long she’s in your head. You dream about her in your bed.
You’ll always have that love for her. You will not live when she is dead.

You’ll never get what you want.
To be with the one that you love.
Seeds of your love never sewn.
You’ll live your life all alone.

All alone.
You can’t forget her now.
Now that you’ve met her now.
You won’t forget her.
Do you regret her?

You’ll never have what you want.
A life with the one that you love.
She’s something you’ll never own.
you’re gonna die all alone.

Goodbye my friend. This game is over.
It’s at it’s end. Goodbye my friend.

You May or you May not know when I’m gone,
but I know that you’ll forget me before too long.
Just promise me that she’ll be okay
and she never finds out she’s the reason I went away.

Will it be a bullet in the brain or a needle in the vein
or a rope under my chin? I don’t care if it’s a sin.
I don’t wanna feel the pain of loving all in vain,
so I’m taking it away. Everything will end today.
Don’t you think to follow me because I know you have the key
to go out there and live your dream. It’s not as far as it may seem.
The life you want is out there waiting, go and claim it for yourself.
I’m not as lucky cause the life I want belongs to someone else.